Moments

    “If I had my life to live over, I’d try to make more mistakes next time. I would relax, I would limber up, I’d be sillier than I have been on this trip. I would take fewer things seriously. I would be less hygienic. I would take more chances. I would take more trips. I would climb more mountains, swim more rivers, and watch more sunsets. I would burn more gasoline. I would eat more ice cream and less beans. I would have more actual troubles and fewer imaginary ones.

    You see, I’m one of those people who lives sensibly and sanely hour after hour, day after day. Oh, I’ve had my moments and if I had my life to live over, I’d have more of them. In fact, I’d have nothing else. Just moments, one after another, instead of living so many years ahead each day. I’ve been one of those people who never goes anywhere without a thermometer, a hot water bottle, a rain coat and a parachute. If I had my life to live over, I’d go places and do things and travel lighter than I have.

    If I had my life to live over I would start barefoot earlier in the spring & stay that way later in the fall. I would play hooky more. I wouldn’t make such good grades, except by accident. I’d ride more merry-go-rounds. I’d pick more daisies.”

    -Nadine Starr

Every time I read this poem, it makes me think. One of my greatest fears in life, is to sit as a 65 year old, regretting all the things I didn't do. It really scares me, to the extent where I can't handle doing whatever it is I am doing anymore. 

It's just that I wish I could just do it. That my mind, body and soul would remember this in every cell, and just do whatever it is I want to do without hesitation. No cords. No strings attached. Nothing holding me back - not even inside of me.

I am getting there.

Are you?